Anxiety
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Last published Sun, Nov 8, 2020
I felt like my heart was racing, pounding, and suffocating... I felt like I was dying. It was not long until I open my eyes.
Hello this story can have warning of suicide and rape.
If you don't feel comfortable about reading this please don't read this kind of story
But it does have LGBTQ+ so if you enjoy this kind of stuff, please go ahead and read. This is a true story btw.
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