What if... ?

What if I were to break, what if I passed out never to wake, what if my happiness is all fake. What if I were to fly, sore away past the sky, what if I left and never said goodbye, what if this side of me has gone, what if I was just a pawn in my own game that couldn't be won? What if this was my last tear, what if I become consumed by my fear, what if my end was near. What if i'm more dead than alive, what if I broke never again to thrive, what if the reaper took me with his scythe. What if I had a heart attack, walked away never to come back. What if this is nothing new, what if this is something I can no longer get through. What if..?