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Ongoing6m
Last published Sun, Sep 28, 2014
everybody wants to be older. you are either too old or too young. well, im Alice, a 16 year old who wishes she couldve taken her want back. im in the middle of grade ten and all i want is to be a kid again. i kinda have the ideal social life, almost perfect body type and to top it off im a "genius", im the one that you'd call "popular" if you went to my high school in the middle of everywhere. although i have one huge downside -
i have never been happy.
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