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"What I saw was forever burned into my memory, never to leave, always to haunt me day and night. "

After witnessing the murder of her mother, Caitria August Leizen finds herself in an inescapable situation forced to live with her mother's murderer. She battles to push down all emotions and feelings, fighting just to stay alive. She wants to go numb, but a tall, dark, handsome stranger has different plans. Will she succumb to the trauma and merely survive, or will she be able to learn to live again? 

*** Major trigger warnings - Murder, assault, abuse, and depression.  It gets pretty dark at times, but the theme of the story is recovering from trauma.

This is my second attempt at this story. I started it back in high school but was unable to bring it to a conclusive end. For anyone who read the original version, this story follows the same essential plot, but I've added more characters and tried to enhance the believability. Let me know how I'm doing!All Rights Reserved

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