Drowning Pain
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Last published Sun, Mar 7, 2021
"Only crazy and stupid people commit suicide, or even think about it ."
I know... I'm crazy
"Are does cuts on your legs?" "Haha, no, I fell into a rose bush, they're just scratches. "
Made by a blade
"There's people who have it worse, think about that"
I know... I think about it every day
"You have depression? Don't you mean you're sad?"
Just sad...
"what's up, you seem strange." "It's nothing... I'm fine"
Save me
"You should kill yourself."
Maybe I should
"I hate you."
Everyone does
"Maybe he was right... I shouldn't hang out with you anymore"
...
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Vienna Bisen tries to fight her demons before they take over.
Will she be saved? or will she succumb to her dark thoughts?
‼TRIGGER WARNING‼
Mentions of self harm and suicidal thoughts
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