An output for my negative thoughts
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Last published Tue, Aug 25, 2020
I'm going through a lot at the moment, I'm going to go to therapy soon but I need somewhere to put my feelings, and this is the only thing I could think of right now. There's no need to read this but if you're interested I guess go right on ahead.
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