.naturally dismal

It's not the same whenever being surrounded with people. When left alone, it's when realization and reality kicks in... it lets out the tones I would never want people want to hear, the vulnerable state that is to be shun away from people. Keeping everything hidden, it's what it should be, but it eats the hell out of your sanity. It's that infuriating, frustrating, unnerving, and miserable feeling.