When Dan finally confesses his feelings for Phil, the older man reacts perfectly, however their jobs pull them apart and Dan struggles to cope without his best friend and lover. Includes Phan, Kickthestickz and Lemma as well as an array of OC's (one of which is based off of Luna Lovegood from Harry Potter) *trigger warnings* swearing, boyxboy, self-loathing, self-harm, depression, anxiety, suicide