where he cried

that god awful party that we were forced to where that toxic ex showed up . you knew how much that made my anxiety strike up even though you were the one who was involved with him. you knew how he was still trying to get between us. you knew how much shit talking he did . but the thing that set apart you was the fact that you just gave me a single smile and held my hand and walked away from the party with me. i still remember that walk back when i was feeling like my masculinity somehow has been destroyed because i did not pick a fight with him. you knew i was not a violent person and you didn't judge me when i didn't pick a fight with him .you planted a kiss on my cheek and said i am not looking for a guy who acts like my personal bodyguard. i know who you are . the second i heard those words a tear came out. i experienced something which i didn't think i had it in me. all my past relationships made me feel like the girl was trying to make her , her personal bodyguard or a goon. i didn't want to fight but somehow the girls thought of me as less of man. you realised that my insecurity to fight didn't make me a wimp . and now i don't think of it as either