The Eccedentesiast
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Eccedentesiast
[ex-ced-den-tee-she-ist]
(n.) Someone who fakes a smile, when all they want to do is cry, disappear, and/or die.
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WARNING ⚠️
- Mature language/themes
- Descriptive stuff that may trigger many readers
- Self-harm
- Suicide
- And many more that I won't list to avoid spoilers
*If any of these things trigger you, please be cautious. If you are suffering with any of the things listed, please seek help. Remember to do it willingly, don't hesitate to send me a private message if you want to talk about your problems. I'm here to listen, even if it's just for some advice.
Currently under Revision, but is complete :)
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