Dear Journal
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Last published Fri, Jun 12, 2020
- The story of a lonely girl
⚠️TW: self harm mention, s*icide mentions,cussing ⚠️
No one knows my name, they don't bother to care. Since everyone thinks I have no emotions, no one cares anymore. They never ask. I hate it.
Ivy Ferns. That's my name. It's not like anyone cares. Right..? I might seem emotionless, but I still have SOME feelings. I have nothing. I don't have friends, supportive family members, or emotions. Everyone just ASSUMES that I don't want to be bothered. It's such a lonely world for me, you know? No one ever actually asks if I'm okay, which I don't even know myself. I may seem like a confusing person, but really I'm pretty simple. Don't assume I'm just another cold-hearted bitch. I'm more than that.
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