All her life, Ashley imagined how her life would be when she finally got the chance to meet her idols. Ever since she saw them auditioning separately in the x-Factor, she fell head over heels for them, she couldn't stop thinking of them, and noticed how slowly they were becoming her idols.
As any fan, Ashley had several fantasies about them, and couldn't stop thinking how everything would change if she was able to talk to them, she wanted them to know she existed, and would do anything to achieve that goal. All she wanted was to be close friends with them, and maybe to mean a bit more to the one who stole her heart in the very first second, Harry Styles.
She finally had the chance to make all her dreams come true, but she will discover that life's rough, and not everything can turn out to be perfect as she wishes. She'll have to go trough a lot, but she is not willing to give upon her dream, because she knows that things like this happen only once in a lifetime...
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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