Best ways to Die!
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Last published Fri, Jun 19, 2020
I just can't find my purpose. He shouldn't have created me for nothing. Even the purpose to live wasn't my purpose anymore. All I wanted was peace and rest. I didn't want it to be literal but it unfortunately lead that way.
I tried to find my purpose. I tried to find something and someone to hold.
There's my friends. A lover... but
they weren't enough to distract me from finding the Best ways to Die.
*A story of a girl who just lost purpose in life. Instead of performing a bloody suicide. She tried to find ways, the best ways to die. Peaceful and calm just the way she wants it.
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