Memories of Before

"I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand. So now I leave without a sound, except that of my heart shattering as it hits the ground."
That is the first page in Elizabeths journal, the journal she uses to get through life. Inside it holds her deepest thoughts, sometimes a single word, other times scribbles or notes. This is her journal, and nobody knows about it. The day Eli lost everything was the day her life ended, thats the day she started her journal. She still walks the world, but she can't feel anything. She blocked all emotions and shut down the day the of the accident. In her mind, she cheated death, and that caused her more pain then she could have imagined. The people she lives without make her want to go back. The only part of her that has feelings is her journal because as far as she is concerned, her heart and soul died that day, and she doesn't want them back. They hold the memories that would kill her, and she would rather live a lifetime of nothing then relive that last day she felt alive.
When Alex literally smashes into Eli's life, she is convinced the world is trying to finish her off. Can this accident help the girl who is labeled beyond help, or was it life coming to collect the last part of her that cheated death.