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What Am I ?

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I lie here in pain
A pain inflicted on me
I guess everyone has turned around
As they fail to see
I am alive yet I feel dead
I am suffocating as I breathe

I cry every night
As tears are the comfort I seek 
When day comes I act mellow
But my all around I see is bleak
My heart aches when I think of me
My heart aches when I speak of me
My heart aches when I see
that what sort of a person turned out to beAll Rights Reserved

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