Judge Mentality (not edited)
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Ongoing17m
Last published Thu, Oct 2, 2014
a lot of people talk about me.
People say i always got an attitude for no reason .
People say i always want to fight for no reason .
People even say that im a hoe .
But i got more reasons then they think i do.
From been adopted because my mom died from being a drug addict , from been abuse by my adoptive big brother , my adoptive mom not giving a fuck about me as long as she get that check from the goverment , & never resiving the love i want from my daddy because he choose his wife over me & not getting love from my mother because she passed away.
Im not making up excuses or saying is a good thing that i take my anger out on other people but aye thats how i am.
this is how motherfuckers made me.
My life has never been about rainbows , they always been about rain , storm , and thunders .
dont nobody know my story .
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