When will you know

This is a lgbtq novel. Please leave if you have anything negative to say. Thank you :)

Hi. My name's Holly Wang. And my life? It's kinda complicated.

The stress of a teenage mind is just too much for Holly. When school starts adding up to her troubles, it's become unbearable. Unbearable enough to end her suffering? To join God?

Junior year is about figuring things out. Getting ready for change. Figuring out her complicated feelings. A fork in the road. To the right is a road of uncertainty, (definitely shame)but Holly can be happy. To the left? A life of regrets and secrets.

Should she leave her perfect boyfriend to pursue the girl of her dreams? Should she just give up?

"My eyes trialed to her full lips, thinking how they would feel on mine. Ever's bright blue gave flickered to meet mine. My cheeks turned red and I turned away, my stomach in knots.
I was met with Andrew's warm eyes. They were the color of honey. So sweet. Too sweet. He kissed me softly on the lips, but all I can think of was Ever and my embarrassment. He pulled away and engulfed me in a hug.
"I'll miss you so much. I wish the game was here. I love you." Andrew smiled, extending his arms to look at me.
"Charles! Come on." Jason hollered from the bus. Andrew ignored him. His eyes studied mine. Then something clicked. He wanted me to say it back to him. I could feel Ever's eyes on me."