Afraid

Reads 278
Votes 34
Parts 10
Time 49m

Reads 278
Votes 34
Parts 10
Time 49m

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When I wake up I am afraid...I am afraid of myself...I am afraid of my mother...when I wake up I am afraid of my mother I am afraid who she will be. Angry? or Loving. I am afraid what will happen if my friends find out what I am...I am the bully because I am being bullied...I am afraid of everything that makes me feel normal so I make others feel like freaks. I bleed so I make them too. I am afraid of loosing  the one thing that scares me the most.

When I wake up I am afraid of where I came from. I am afraid of that night with the fire works and the musty cabin. I wasn't the type to wear sweaters but ever since that night I feel so horrible about myself. I let that happen I let him do that to me. I am afraid of what people would think about me the girl from California that gave it up for a small town of Edison, New Jersey.All Rights Reserved

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