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Why Try

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Hi, I'm Hayley, Sometimes when I'm alone I like to pretend I'm happy. I know I'm not though. I don't laugh like I used to. I don't smile at cute things. Sometimes when I'm alone I like to self harm. I like hurting myself. I doesn't hurt anymore. I've gotten used to it. Purging, Cutting, Sometimes even burning myself. The voice inside my head calling me things. Ugly, Fat, not good enough. I try to not listen, but it's hard. How can you ignore yourself?All Rights Reserved

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All I want is to be alone. I wish that no one existed. My name is Zeina. I don't talk much. Not at all actually. Well not really. I sign or write things down in my notebook. I can speak. But I really only speak to those I trust. Today I'm gonna die. Don't feel bad for me, I am choosing my fate after all. Im tired of living. It's exhausting really living up to your own expectations and the expectations of others. I'm sick of shaving every inch of my limbs, plucking my eye brows, doing my hair, getting dress. Honestly I'm sick of people. My hair is long and dark brown with blonde in it. I have bangs that hang over my face and ever so slightly across my eyes. I don't have friends. My family sucks. So if you're reading this I have a question for you. Are you an outcast too. Everyday I come home from school, take sleeping pills, and go to sleep. Now I just want to sleep. Infinitely. (A/N I'm currently editing this!)