Why Try
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Hi, I'm Hayley, Sometimes when I'm alone I like to pretend I'm happy. I know I'm not though. I don't laugh like I used to. I don't smile at cute things. Sometimes when I'm alone I like to self harm. I like hurting myself. I doesn't hurt anymore. I've gotten used to it. Purging, Cutting, Sometimes even burning myself. The voice inside my head calling me things. Ugly, Fat, not good enough. I try to not listen, but it's hard. How can you ignore yourself?
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