Akechi hates this fake reality and would rather die than be under someone elses thumb in this superficial world Maruki created. It makes him want to puke and destroy something. Yet Akira Kurusu would be this selfish to make him live in it because hes scared hed never see him again? What idioticy. Akira has to deal with the choice of losing a dear friend and rival or sacrifice them for a reality they all poured their heart in.