No Such Thing (Chaelisa)

"I have one last question to ask before you leave" she told me.

"Okay, shoot."

"We... Were you, like had feelings for me? Like being more than friends?" I can see her confused look and hesitation while asking.

"Yes."

I finally said it bravely. I saw disbelief registered her beautiful face. Then followed with regret. As soon as I uttered the word I knew I'm going to regret it considering that I've used a geat deal of denial and energy just to hide it.

That's when I asked myself, why now? I guess maybe because it has been a dead weight on my chest for the longest time and to be able to finally admit it to her made it seem like a confirmation and maybe a closure for both of us.

"When?" she asked weakly tears now forming on her beautiful brown eyes.

"Since five years ago Lisa." I told her matter-of-factly.

"Since the very first time I saw you."