Abyss in My Head... (Yaoi, Psychological) - Michiko Ishii - Wattpad

Abyss in My Head... (Yaoi, Psychological)

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Reads 2,867
Votes 417
Parts 16
Time 1h 37m

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{Complete, 14 Chapters & an Epilogue}
How does it feel loving a person who has a serious mental problem?

Due to a traumatic past, Lyle lost all his memories and developed a Post-traumatic Stress Disorder. He suffered from panic attacks, anxieties, recurring nightmares and a habit of harming himself .

Kieran knew Lyle couldn't remember anything. He also knew that there was only a tiny chance of being able to gain the young man's love again. He wasn't giving up though.

...even if it means being in a relationship where his patience, understanding and acceptance were constantly being tested, Kieran was determined to stay.

WARNING: THIS  BOOK  IS  NOT  FOR  THE  SENSITIVE  AND  FAINT-HEARTED  ONES. So many triggers inside. Please skip the book if you think you can't handle it.All Rights Reserved

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