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Denial (boyxboy)

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Reads 378,162
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Parts 31
Time 1h 41m

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You have to wonder what goes through a persons head when you're convinced that the one thing you desire most you can't ever hope to have. Denial, that is the state of mind I'm in.  I ache constantly. Why you ask? The worst kind of denial...unrealized love. It would be so much easier to deal with, if this love weren't a part of my everyday life but, I get ahead of myself.  Let's start from the beginning...All Rights Reserved

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