always ask why //phan
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>>youll never understand if you don't ask why<<
there is some abuse in this but i tried not to make it graphic. if you are triggered by things like mental/physical/emotional abuse, alcohol, depressive thoughts, or mentions of any type of violence, then this fic is NOT FOR YOU! please be safe! ❤
im really bad at updating fics but ill try to keep it regular. ill try for once or twice a week but it might be a little less.
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