Dream, Reality, Or Nightmare?

Dream, Reality, Or Nightmare?
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I was so tired. There was no energy left in my body. He picked me up bridal style to take me to the garden for some fresh air. It was months I never left the bed as the doctor has perscribed me. When I felt him picking me up, I said," Philip has ne- ."
By just hearing me say that name, he suddenly threw me on the bed and snapped," Stop saying this fucking name always! Goddamnit!" And then left the room.
I was too shocked to react to anything, the very first moment I wanted to start trusting him, he ruined everything. I have never understood him. I was deep in my thoughts that I didn't realize that just my water broke. Until I felt a terrible pain in my abdomen. And that's when I saw not only that my water broke but also the blood running down my thighs.
I didn't even realize when I started screaming like a crazy person from that endless horrible pain; There was always one thing in my mind, when I was hopeless," Run! Run! Save yourself!" But this time i couldn't. This time I had no hope, no energy left. This time I didn't wanna survive. For what should I live? I have no answer.
I let the darkness consume me as I fell on the floor and the last thing I saw, my blurry vision saw him very anxious and scared coming towards me. I could see his mouth was moving. He surely was saying something and speaking, but I couldn't hear anything.
The last thing I realized from this world before I give in to the darkness was him saying,"Don't leave me."
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