Summary for pt 1 Ace is suicidal. He doesn't think he should have been born. Him having the blood of a monster that runs through his veins. Family doesn't find out tell Ace comes home from a failed suicide attempt. When he sets out and finds Deuce, his first mate, he stops for a while. When he joins Whitebeard he starts up again and hopes no one catches on. With his bad luck, or good luck, Marco finds out when he forces himself on him and takes off the poorly wrapped bandages. As Marco helps him out the best he can, Ace is struggling with feelings that started to surface. Summary for pt2 Ever since Ace told the crew that was going on with him, Marco noticed him acting strange. To put it shortly, Ace is avoiding him. He stopped coming to him for help and went to the others or he didn't go to anyone. He doesn't remember doing anything wrong for Ace to avoid him. It confused him but at the same time hurt him a little. He kinda felt lonely. warning: may trigger people that do self harm and people with depression. Sorry for any errors and art isn't mine. This has already been published on Ao3.