I'm a Captive of Nobody....

I'm Carter... I have light brown hair, green eyes, im 13 just starting 8th grade, and i'm loosing my mind.... My parents fight everyday... they always have since I was born.... But now things have gotten worse my dad has been beating us... he's been harassing us, I want it to all just fade into a horriable bad dream...I refuse to tell anyone about whats been happening...I keep it in my own head and its driving me crazy. Sometimes I dont realise it but i'll lash out screaming, Stop please dont touch me! I want to just roll up in a ball and hide... or better yet.. die. I need help but I dont know how to find it... do I ? No I know I cant because... how can you hide from yourself, when none of this really happening... Its just in my head... No it cant be! Someone please help me...