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Parts 18
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_Sleep_Deprived__

bakudeku dadzawa deku depresseddeku depression fanfic fanfiction hatelife izuku kacchan kiri kiribakudeku kirideku mha softkacchan suicidaldeku

Deku was alway depressed ever since him dad left and his mom blamed him for being quirkless also from kacchan bulling him. He wanted to end it all but they didn't let him.
(Kiribakudeku)


Ps. I don't spell good and I don't own mha ar the picture only some


This is my first book (year or two later why tf do y'all read this) 🤝


This book has self harm, a little abuse , self hate , three way shipAll Rights Reserved

bakudeku dadzawa deku depresseddeku depression fanfic fanfiction hatelife izuku kacchan kiri kiribakudeku kirideku mha softkacchan suicidaldeku

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" i'm so sorry deku." by Luna176357

Deku has been masking his feelings for a long time and hiding his biggest secret, but recently things have gotten much worse and the thoughts have grown louder. Until 1 day bakugou accidentally finds out izuku's secret and everything he thought he knew about him dissapears in an instant , he must now count his words carefully because izuku is a tickking time bom. (TW! The following are mentioned in this story: SelfHarm,Suicide,Depression,Anxiety,PanicAttacks,Rape an SA. IF YOU ARE EASILY TRIGGERED BY THESE TOPICS ESPECIALLY SH PLEASE DO NOT READ!) i hope you enjoy this sad bakudeku story . [THIS IS MY FIRST EVER STORY WRITTEN SO IM SORRY IF ITS BAD OR IF I MISS SPELL ANYTHING I HAVE DYSLEXIA T-T otherwise enjoy my sad story lovers<3]

$Not Okay (Depressed Deku x Bakugou) {!Under Editing!} by Not_Totally_Alive$

A story about Izuku's problems with his mother's death and his abusive father. Deku slowly opens up after hiding his emotion from his classmates and teachers. And soon regrow a relationship with Bakugo to be more than friends. ⚠️Warning ⚠️ Lord this is cringe but I won't take it down for the sad deppressed lovelies. This story does contain mature and triggering subjects. -Rape -Abuse -Self-harm -Eating disorders -Blood -Sexual content -Suicide -Depression -Anxiety -Swearing -Drugs -And more fun stuff So if you do not feel comfortable with this subject I advise you to find a different story pls, because I will only place a warning on the first chapter and after that, you're on by yourself. So pls be careful. 😊 Not my characters, I don't own them!

Feeling a Little Unwanted by summer_is_the_best33

Story starts off when Deku is in his 3rd year of junior high. After Deku's mom died and no heroes even tried to save her, Deku gave up on trying to be a hero living off of the money he gets from sex and just trying to get through this cruel thing we call life. That is until he meets 3 special people who completely change his life. I do not own the character, pictures, etc. I only own the plot. I will give warnings for when triggering things are about to happen. Just scroll till you see bold, underlined words. TW: Cussing/Swearing Rape Smut/Fluff Boy x Boy/Gay stuff Depression Cutting Maybe more warnings that I can't think of right now

I hate that I love you! (Bakudeku) (VillainDeku) [Rewriting] by jeffythepotato

Izuku Midoriya was the average kid who stood out because he was born quirkless in a quirk-based world. Growing up bullied by his childhood best friend, he grew to have depression and anxiety. The day he decided to jump, he didn't know that one action would change the course of his life. Being part of the LOV, he was trained to be the perfect weapon, the quirks he was given, were perfect for stealth and hard missions. He was happy and content with the life he was living, not caring that no matter where he went, blood was spilt. Kacchan was a prodigy. Powerful and learned quick. Angry and feared but when his old friend goes missing, he blamed himself. He cut off most of his friends to focus on being the top hero to make up for what he did. When he finally runs into him after two years, he is shocked to see what has happened to the supposedly dead boy. Eyes filled with death and coldness. Scars covering his body and now suddenly has quirks? He realized quickly that they may be right next to each other but they lived worlds apart. . . . TW!! This book does include suicidal thoughts, cutting, depression, gore, and suicide. I would not recommend if that stuff bothers you. If you do struggle with this stuff. Please get help as you are loved even if the voices tell you otherwise.

Thanks, But Its To Late (Suicidal Bakugo X Kirishima) by dont_question

Bakugo is suicidal and has been his whole life cause he has horrible parents that abuse him and used to get bullied until he became the bully and bullied people so they can "feel his pain" until he meets Kirishima. Quirks are in this story but are barley used Spelling errors 🤣 ⚠⚠ No cursing ⚠⚠Talks about self harm and abuse ⚠⚠Talks about blood ⚠⚠⚠⚠⚠Suicide is mentioned a lot!!!!! PLZ READ!!!!! Ok so I gotta say this SUCKS I made this so long ago and I did not know how to actually write correctly so there are many errors and things that don't make sense so yes I'm sorry that this will be pretty stupid 😂 but hey if you wanna read go ahead and PLZ READ THE LAST PAGE THERE IS A EXTRA ONE AT THE END!!!! thank you have a great day 💖 Update(7/9/22): Srsly why are y'all reading this still 💀 it's so badddddddd high chance imma redo this whole book but make it a "new book" just so this one is still here- but idk honestly I might forget-

Depression || Dadzawa || BakuDeku || Bakugo x Midoriya || Depressed Deku by trizbo

⚠️Includes⚠️: Depression, selfharming, boyxboy, suicide attempt, ed (sort of), panic attacks Disclaimer: None of the photos I used belong to me in any way. I found them on Instagram without any credits. I do not own any of the characters mentioned in this book. ____________________________________ "Good. Now I want to ask you. Can you please roll up your sleeves for a second?" I widened my eyes. "Wha- what?" Did I just hear that right? Wh- ____________________________________ Deku has high functioning depression but no one knows it until one day Mr. Aizawa caught him selfharming in school and Bakugou notices how weird his childhood friend and crush is acting. Suddenly Deku's mother disappeared without a trace and no one seems to know where she could be. Not even Bakugou's mother knows where she was and decided to let Deku live with them until they could find Deku's mom. When Deku saw how much Bakugou cares about him, he started to fall in love with him but his depression kept destroying his life. His thoughts got worse and darkened from day to day until he wasn't able to keep himself alive any minute longer. Will he survive? ____________________________________ PLEASE REMEMBER THAT THIS IS A FANFIC AND THAT I'M NOT COMPLETELY TAGGING ALONG WITH THE ORIGINAL STORY SO SHUT UP IF I'M NOT WRITING THINGS THAT ALSO OCCUR THE SAME WAY IN THE ACTUAL ANIME This story contains spelling mistakes and stuff but sometimes I'm too blind to see them, I'm sorry 🏃🏼 Happy ending ____________________________________ 2🏅 bakudeku; Feb. 8th 2021 2🏅 dadzawa; Feb. 8th 2021 13🏅 sad: Feb. 26th 2021 1🏅 imfine: Mar. 25th 2021 1🏅 depression: Apr. 14th 2021

Karma's A B**** (Suicidal Deku AU) [DISCONTINUED] by -We_All_Need_Jesus-

"You know what they say Kacchan.....Karma's a bitch." ------------------------------------------ [DISCONTINUED] Hello! This is a suicidal Deku story. But just to warn ya! ⚠️⚠️this story is gonna include: cutting, anorexia, suicidal thoughts, suicidal attempts, and death.⚠️⚠️ So if you are sensitive to any of these topics, I suggest you do NOT read this story! ‼️THIS STORY IS NOT A BAKUDEKU STORY. IT WAS NEVER A BAKUDEKU STORY, AND NEVER WILL BE‼️ -Also I do not own any of the characters in this story nor do I own the art I use in the chapters. The fan art or the quotes I use in chapters were all found on google.

Cut That Always Bleeds (Depressed Izuku) -BkDk by _BiPanicAtTheDisco_

(COMPLETED) 150,000+ words (In the process of chapters being added on to and extended 10/21/25) Depressed Izuku AU. BakuDeku Story: If you don't like this ship, don't read this. He is abused by his father and neglected by his late mother. He struggles with his mental health and abusive home life before finally finding a safe haven at UA. What could go wrong? (Yes, the chapter names are all Taylor Swift songs.) There will also be other ships in the story, but they will only be talked about briefly, so they will probably be mentioned at the beginning of the chapter. Also, Kirishima is going to be mean in this story, sorry. Like, really, really mean. Toxic Kirideku, and then the end result is BakuDeku. #1 meaninko 4/12/25 #1 sadizuku 5/29/25 #1 meankirishima 7/30/25 TW - Self harm, Sexual assault, Sexual abuse, Emotional abuse, Physical abuse, Child abuse, Rape, Eating disorders, Anxiety, Panic attacks, Depression, Suicidal thoughts, Drinking, Neglect, Underage drinking, Drugs, Underage use of illegal substances, Vaping, Bullying, Suicide baiting, Suicide, Attempted suicide, Pedophilia (Incest?), Murder, Smoking. TW will be given before paragraphs if they contain possible triggers, and also after paragraphs to be aware of the ending of TW. ****Edited**

A Femboy To Rember by Animestorywriting

Izuku Midoriya is a boy that has gone through hell and back. He was bullied for not having a quirk all through middle school by his "best friend" Katsuki Bakugo. Then out of the blue, he gained a quirk. His quirk is called "Emotional Damage". It isn't as bad as it sounds. It just means that when someone is faced with torture or something similar to it you will gain a quirk. It's pretty rare so he doesn't use it much. This quirk allows the owner to have a certain thing happen to him based on his emotions. Deku had gone through a Femboy phase so he just goes with it now, no matter what people say or think and somehow got a harem along the way. He has grown mentally and physically tough so it's hard to get to his heart. Will his harem the consist of his classmates be able to break down the layers to this badass femboy's heart or not. We will see~ ⚠️CONTAINS⚠️ mentions of suicide,cursing and Femboy/Badass Deku cause why not 😗💅 ꕥᵈⁱˢᶜᵒⁿᵗⁱⁿᵘᵉᵈꕥ P . S : Please if you do not like the very heavy usage of misspelling, cursing , talk of suicide , Femboy Deku please exit this story . I wish to remind all that this book was created when I was younger and so I did not have much knowledge on the topic of story writing . The layout of the book changes from a stage play to heavy paragraphs so beware of that. But please enjoy my other recent books made with better writing and less spelling errors.

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• Izuku Yagi diagnosed as quirkless at the age of 4. His 'parents' Inko and Toshinori Yagi, his 'sister' Izumi Yagi, and his 'best friend' Kaachan(aka Katsuki Bakugo) started to neglect, abused and bullied him. Even though he was hurt by his 'family', he never give up on his dream to become hero one day and to show the whole world that even a quirkless can be a hero. But something changes when he met the person who's in the dark alleyway. • This is my first story(But the real first is the other one). So, there's some things that are expected here like: - Bad description - Bad summary - Some wrong grammar (English is my second language but I'm still struggling about it T_T) • This story will be Dekubowl(If you don't know what is it, then search for it 😅😆) and the main ship here is Overdeku. • Feel free to criticize my story and if you don't like my story, then don't read it. No one forced you to read this anyway. •NOTE: I'm always editing • DISCLAIMER: I don't own anything except the plot

suicidal deku by Sleepless29

this is one of my first fanfics (being edited) deku have finally given up and decided to take kaachans advice.... So I dont really have a plan for this story so I just going to write what ever based on the previous chapter. So I dont know what this story will end like. I will keep updating tags and the description based on what is happening in the story ^hope this makes sense. Description edit: I guess there is gonna be katsudeku. Lol SECOND BOOK HAS BEEN PUBLISHED "WE HAVE EACH OTHER"

$Guess Who //Villain Deku AU\\ by Takyio$

After realizing that Izuku couldn't be a hero he still never gave up. Not until he was told he couldn't be one from his all time favorite hero, All might. Deku had no reason to live anymore, he hated his life. He was even told to commit suicide by his childhood friend that he was madly in love with. His crush hated him. He was also going to UA, one of the top schools out there. His crush was going to leave him for a stupid school, His Kacchan was breaking up with him. ⚠🚨 I should probably make this clear before y'all ready ⚠🚨 This fan fiction may talk about heavy stuff such as: *suicide *sexual harassment (I mean serious!) *angst *smut *gore *extremely heavy language * and some homophobic (really just one line) Please, if anything makes you uncomfortable that is listed above read with caution! Please be safe children ⚠🚨 KEEP IN MIND THAT THIS IS A WORK OF FICTION!! This is my interpretation of how I believe this AU of mha would be. Bc of this I do not support the actions of some twisted characters! Again, this is a interpretation of how I think villian deku who like hero Bakugo would end up as!

At first we're laughing Now we're crying (Depressed deku x Bakugo Book #1) by PhantomThiefRin

Note (8/10/22): I absolutely HATE this story, I feel like this isn't the best representation I could've done and definitely over-exaggerated some stuff, and I hate that I made Deku such a crybaby! Ever since His father died of a Illness ,Deku blamed himself for his death. But he regrets saying the 3 words he hated the most to his father,"I HATE YOU" sadly those were the last words he said to his father. Since then Deku didn't know how to express his emotions so he hides his face with his,'Izu-Chan board" a sketch book to write his emotions on. However he still didn't feel anything. His mother was worried for him. And it doesn't help that his childhood friend Bakugo bullies him. But what would happen if his bully secretly had a crush on him?! Warning! ⚠⚠⚠: this story include's Depression,Anxiety, and self harm and suicide attempts. If you have depression or anything I just mentioned reach out to someone please.

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Abandoned by Didget404

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You're Going Down a Dark Path Midoriya by ABURDENandBORED

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