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All In My Head Previously If Only You Knew

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alone bestfriend betrayal broken brother deadinside death depressed family friends grave highschool hurt lonely love moving pain regret rejection romance teen toxic

It's raining but I don't care
The drops of rain hit my back reminding me of the pain
So much hurt
The tears rolled down my cheek dropping on his grave stone 
" I miss you " I manage to mutter
I don't know why I keep coming here
Something's wrong with me
How can you miss someone you've never met
But to think of all the times we could have had
I could have had a brother
I imagine how he could have looked like
" so handsome " 
The tears won't stop 
So I don't try to stop them anymore
My sister's don't seem to care
So I don't know why I care so much
Its not like i ever met him
But still
They don't understand me
Nobody does
I guess you could say it's all in my head
.....

When your Best friend moves out of town, you're pushed out of your comfort zone and partner with a guy for an assignment, a mystery guy moves next door, a few artistic intuitions and heart breaking betrayals if you could even call it that, a lot of decisions have to be made and everything falls on a 17 year old Athalia, but you know what they say

When life give you a canvas, you paint

So here's Athalia's broken heart but the question is whose doing the paintingAll Rights Reserved

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