Philophobia
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I am Rainer Marcus Santiago, and I have a mild case of Philophobia. I have been going to therapy for it for about 3 years. They say I'm almost "cured" but, I don't think I am. Just the word "love" makes me shudder. But here he comes. Him in all his glory. My past. The one person I wanted and want to love most, but can't.
Uh hey. I'm Colden Ryan Martinez and I am in love with Rainer. We were hella close in middle school but I had to move. I think that's when his phobia of falling in love started. I mean I'm not trying to sound like a douche but I think he fell in love with me because, I was in love with him too. And I just left him. So I'm back. I'm 17 and I'm back.
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~started 7/18/20~
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