Before The Light
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Pain... I'm pretty sure no one likes to talk about that. Compared to those who have been abused or those who are facing racism, sexism or such, my pain is absolutely nothing.
But it does hurt. Poetry is an outlet for my feelings. Paper does have more patience than people. And letting all the feelings out gives glimpses of the light I hope to once find.
When I talk about the light, I don't mean god, or something holy. I mean that moment in your life when you are smiling after everything you have gone through.
Nightmares, death, hidden tears, losing hope, finding hope, trying to love again, nostalgia, past or overthinking, it's all there. So please be careful if it triggers a past experience you want to forget. I know how much it hurts.
//CAN BE TRIGGERING//
Awards-
🥉3rd place in the Liliac Awards🥉
🥉3rd place in the Poetry Awards🥉
🥉3rd place in the Endora Awards🥉
🥉3rd place in the Novas Awards🥉
🥉3rd place in the Come Thrid Awards?🥉(jk)
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[featured 4x] A palate of poems. {Some simple words mean really deep. We use them without knowing their true worth... I portray such simple words in my poems.} {You will find long poems, In simple words. Some short ones, And a few deep thoughts} {If not now Then when? Words are crops, we plough. Memories are sand, ashen} ●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○ This collection of poems is a souvenir of my journey through the range of emotions I feel every day and of how I view the world around me . {Sometimes I lack zeal, Sometimes I don't. Sometimes I don't feel, Anything and everything feels unknown.} ●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○ 🥇1st place in best book cover in starry sky mini awards... 💫 cover credits - @bl_AcK_zE_rO ●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○ If you are reading this book somewhere else other than WATTPAD. it's not safe!! Your device is under threat. Please report that site!!! ●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○●○ Most impressive ranking #3 in poetry out of 261K on( 1st - 3rd August 2021) #1 in poeticjustice out of 1.4K #1 in poesia out of 12.3K #1 in poembook out of 10.7 K #1 in thoughtsandfeelings out of 9.97 K #1 in poetrycollection out of 22.4K #8 in poem out of 156K on 1st to 6 th July #1 in thoughts out of 73.6 K
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