Finding Clorence.......... through another guy.

My name is Clorence. Im really shy and not that outgoing. I dont really know who I am. Am I a genious?Basketclaim?What? I dont trust or love anyone. My parents kind of abandoned me since I was 6. So you can say i was raised that way. LOL. I might not love anyone but I know for a fact that i am gay. Yes i said it gay!!! I never told anyone though. Its probably not that obvious since I dont talk. But I know for a fact that im a homosexual. Im a foster child that live in a foster home with 12 other children. Im a 10th grade 14yr old. I dont have many friends...... just two. I sorta think im falling in love.... but why.... it hurts thats all i can say. Will i find myself through him???? Or lose what I have found out so far??? Or lose who im suppose to be to him.