It's about a girl writing to her first love. She has a lot of firsts with him. A lot happens and her mental breaks and then there's stress from her family. Then to top it all off she discovers a dark secret from her lover. She try's to fight with herself to keep her self alive. Also with him and tries to keep them together when he quickly losses feelings her and starts to have feelings for someone w. But in the end she has to let him go.