If you want to know if a girl really loves, you break her heart.......Raila is that girl but on a different course, it wasn't a test it was real..real as hell.....the pain she feels when she constantly remembers that her heart is in a million pieces was real. Like a puppet, all she can do is dance the way her puppeteers wants her to..but since it is obvious that life hates her for no reason, she is going to do some she wants to do for a change.......Let go..........Let go of life.