Recovering from abuse
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Ongoing8m
Last published Fri, Jul 31, 2020
From 8th until almost 10th grade I was in multiple abusive relationships. Now I'm (a high school senior am taking myself back. I'm going to get better. And I'm going to document my recovery.
This is real, it's documenting everything and a form of therapy for me. PLEASE do not read if you are sensitive to these subjects. It contains things such as abuse, mental health, suicide, self harm, recovery, rape, and much more.
With that, please do not leave any hate and please bear with me on posting. This is a really sensitive subject for me. If you or someone you know needs to talk about anything at any time, please feel free to message me. I would love to talk to you.
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