ALONE IN THE DARKNESS (updates paused)

I gave up crying years ago. I don't like crying. I don't like people who make me cry too. However, today I am crying. Not because of a person who I hate. But I am crying for the only persons I love in life. They mean the whole world to me. How could have I done such a thing to them? How could.......?

Tears are running down my cheeks, I can't stop them. I feel like crying now. There is nothing which I can do other than crying now. NOTHING!!

I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs. It's dark and silent outside. Sure, if I scream now I may wake the whole neighborhood. But I don't care. I started sobbing and weeping. I was damn tried. But still I did not sleep. It was three at night and I didn't feel like sleeping at all. I wanted to be left alone. I am left alone now. I don't have anyone now. ANYONE..!!

I AM ALONE IN THE DARKNESS NOW.