A Struggle with Identity (Open Diary)
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"When you thought they were accepting, when you thought they were open minded. When you realized it is all just a thought."
Just like Augustus Waters, I fear oblivion. I want to have a constant representation of myself to all my Wattpad friends. A representaion that FashionMonkey lives on. Join me with my struggle to find myself in this slightly homophobic provincial-city.
“You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching,
Love like you'll never be hurt,
Sing like there's nobody listening,
And live like it's heaven on earth.”
― William W. Purkey
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