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This is my story. My name is Lalita and I must warn you before hand that this story is not for the weak at heart. This is not a story for those who are sensitive, defensive, and/or criticizers. Don’t tell me this could never happen because there might be someone like me around you. Don’t tell me what I should have done. What could you have done differently? Don’t pity me. Pity gets you nowhere. I just want you to see me. Please see me and my story. If this makes you cry, I’m sorry. I would never want to inflict the pain that others have inflicted on me but you have been warned. This is my story and it isn’t a happily ever after…All Rights Reserved

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