Incomplete Until I Met You

I always envied the stars, I wished I could be up there, just be free. Free from this world. Free to die alone and give one last gift of beauty before anyone even realized I was gone. The stars held a freedom that I wished I had. I love my Fiance, I love this man, this beautifully imperfect man. He made me laugh, he made me feel loved. . . but he made me hate myself , he made me weak, he taught me to fear for my life, he suffocated me with his unbounding love.

I couldn't take it anymore, I couldn't take the abuse, the physical and verbal pain he put me through. Do you understand? Being with him was the best feeling in the world and the worst hell I ever been through. I had to run, I had to run as far as I could. So that's what I did , I ran , and ran stayed to myself. Don't start none, won't be none. I accepted my fate, I was meant to die alone, born to die this empty incomplete human.

I was worthless and unworthy of any ones love accept his. That was drilled into me for 3 years nonstop. So it must be true right? At least I thought that until I met you.