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My Poisonous Thoughts

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The story of a man who grew up under difficult circumstances had a schizophrenic mother and a traumatized father. His latter life was difficult too he was made fun of. He developed into a person who hated weak people had a radical mindset and visualized a world with no sufferings and only peace but his ideology is dangerous to all those who're not like him. 

He appreciated the ones who killed the ones who could never suffer because they were so dangerous...

But who so firm who won't suffer.

His life changes as he discovers that his life is nothing more than a curse to him and also to the people who surround him. 

What happens that makes him want to become a better person and leave everything he's achieved by his killing and  threatening activities?  And will he be able to change completely....?"All Rights Reserved

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He's the bad boy. Im the shy girl.

Meet Riley brooks. Age 18. She was bullied her hole school life so she is shy round people but that's not the only reason shes shy, Riley's beaten by her father. She's always blamed for her mothers death. She's now depressed&cuts. Shes scared off people, she always thinks there gonna hurt her. Meet Zayn Malik. Age 20. People our scared of him and he is very well known. Ayana's mum and dad died in a car crash when Zayn was only 6 so he lives with his grandad who don't Evan talk to him. Because zayns grandad is rich that makes Zayn rich, he gets what he wants when he want,he don't give a fuck. He is known for being a player with the girls. The thing is when you get to know Zayn he is just a big kid hiding behind a mental wall. So what happens when the to opposites live opposite Will they find out each others secrets?! Will they be more hate then love?! Or more love then hate?! What about death?! Will they get their happy ever after?! Or maybe plain deserter?! ********* I'm too scared to even look inside this book I know it's sad and just awfully written... I will work up the courage to rewrite I promise! It's short and an easy read. ... I swear I'll stop being scared soon and I'll reread it and the write it again from scratch with this book being my base line.