I possibly need therapy

Me ranting out my troubles. im pretty sure is start arguing with myself. me talking myself out of stupidity. degrading myself.
legit I dont know what this is but this might be healthier and safer for me. Or not and completely ruin my remaining sanity.
if you have triggers and issues, possibly, please avoid this. dont read. these are a few of my demons, stuff i fight with.
I dont care for grammar or spelling on this as im typicaly writing this stuff at my lowest self esteem and point where they attack.
please take care, even though I know no one is gonna read this.