i'm not okay
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Ongoing6m
Last published Thu, Mar 25, 2021
if you feel suicidal, anxious, sad, scared, etc., read this. not because i want the views or anything, but i want the best for everyone and a safe space. i'm here for you, whether you like it or not, and my dms are open. feel more than free to reach out.
it won't help to say you are beautiful and you are loved because ik that won't reach you like it doesn't reach me. however much tru it is (which it is). so instead let's write about pain instead.
shall we?
-- theme's of suicide and self-harm--
suicide or self-harm is NOT encouraged.
Highest ranking:
1 in #itsover
11 in #suicideprevention
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