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"My Thoughts Are Stars No One Can Fathom Into Constellations."

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To be blatant, this is no ordinary "love" story, or "teen" story, or "fanfiction". In fact, this isn't even a story. 

Here, shall be my contemporary release, until I find the longing to go back to my - although destructive - previous "release".
This isn't going to be happiness, and rainbows, and butterflies. Maybe a slight 2% of it. 
This place, in which you're intrigued to know more, is where my true essence really comes to life. Where you'll know all about me - my troubles, my doubts, my problems. You'll be transported to the depths of my mind. To some, it may seem like nonsensical ramble, but to few, it is so utterly and completely relatable, they'll find themselves hooked, unable to let go. 

I can't promise this will be updated regularly, but I can promise the contents of this are of the truest nature. 

With that been said, I bid you a goodbye, until next time - or not. 
~ JustThatGirlxoAll Rights Reserved

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COMPLETED Description : Honey is just shy of her 21st birthday when she moves to a tiny little town deep in New Mexico. She has no money, no family, no friends and no idea how she ended here, but she does have one thing, and that's a biker named Rage. Rage who is one of the ruthless members of the MC at 26 but unlike Honey, he has money, family, friends and now he'll have one more thing, and that's a cute little waiter named Honey. So when the two meet, and the day after Honey gets assaulted by a drunk in the bar the MC owns, will Rage take her in or will he let her be? Of course he does, buy little does he know the cute little waiter with the british accent will be harder to claim then anyone before. So, We hope you're enjoying you stay here at the Devil's Angels MC. How about you stick around a little longer? For Honey's sake. Can be ready as a stand alone but is the second book in the Devil's Angels MC. Excerpt : "Before I get far, my arm is grabbed and I'm yanked back into a hard chest and then shoved into the shed wall, "who the fuck do you think you are?" He growls lowly and slowly in my ear causing me to shiver. Then he looks over his shoulder, "everyone go inside." Everyone nods and drops what their doing and run inside. Then he looks back to me and growls again and runs his hand across my neck before pressing down slightly and leaning in closer to me,"I know you aren't ready for this, I understand that. I told you I'm going to wait for you and still even then you are mine. And I'll do everything in my power to protect you and that also means me claiming you," he pauses and gives my neck butterfly kisses making me let out a moan and nod, "the men here are mean, rough and ruthless and will do anything to get a girl they want. Once you are claimed, you're safer. No one will mess with you, especially because you're mine," he growls again, sucking on my neck. "Ookay," I say breathless."