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DOLDRUMS [H.S]

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"It was really hard to talk about, it was hard to wake up every single day to find myself, fighting from my own mind. I wanted to give up. I tried to give up. Nearly succeeded...
There came an annoying stranger, who held my hand told me that it's okay not to be okay, that it's gonna be alright. It's gonna be fine. I'm strong, my anxiety is lying to me. I can fight this.
And it was true, I'm strong and I fought it and So can you. Every one of you can fight it. I believe in you, every single one present here."
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