Little White Soldiers
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Last published Tue, Sep 23, 2014
There are days Ashton just wakes up and feels off. Almost like the world's burden is collapsing on his shoulders and that everything he does only makes it worse. Ash usually solves this with his sharp blade under the cabinet or the white pills he hides dearly.
Eventually though, Ashton starts to feel more than a little off and everything spirals out of control.
Warning: Suicide attempt/thoughts, self harm, and depression
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