Little White Soldiers
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There are days Ashton just wakes up and feels off. Almost like the world's burden is collapsing on his shoulders and that everything he does only makes it worse. Ash usually solves this with his sharp blade under the cabinet or the white pills he hides dearly.
Eventually though, Ashton starts to feel more than a little off and everything spirals out of control.
Warning: Suicide attempt/thoughts, self harm, and depression
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The small metal contraption on the floor wasn’t usually so terrifying to Ashton. But right now in this moment it was the scariest thing he’d ever seen. He was scared about what number would pop up on the tiny screen when Luke stepped on it. He feels the same fear he felt when he saw Luke on the floor in a puddle of blood and vomit sobbing. It broke his heart to know that the boy he loved was hurting himself this way. Of course Luke didn’t know about Ashton’s feelings, he was too absorbed in his own self-hatred to notice the loving glances Ashton shot his way. Luke hated himself too much to realize how much he was loved.
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