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Waves

LittleSparrow16

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OKUNANLAR 38
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Bölümler 5
Süre <5 mins

LittleSparrow16

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Note: This book will be on hold until further notice, whenever I get a break from all my college work :/

I've been struggling for a while now, but I never thought it would get this bad. I never thought it would get to the point that I didn't want to exist at all. 
I lay in bed for hours on end, staring at the wall and wondering where it all went wrong.
I can't find joy in anything anymore. I can't eat or shower or pull myself out of bed every morning. The days blur together and the floor spins when I stand up. My head aches constantly. 
I'm slowly pushing people away and blaming it all on them, even though I know it's not their fault. I'm trying so hard to act like I'm okay, even though I'm far from it. 
It's getting bad again, and this time I don't know how to stop it. 

"So I will try, try, try to breathe / Till it turns to muscle memory / I'm only steady on my knees / But one day, I'll stand on my own two feet" - Son, Sleeping At Last

A book of poems I've written depicting the healing process.

"Healing comes and goes in waves, and today, it all seems to be crashing down."

TW/CW: discusses anxiety and depression.Tüm hakları saklıdır

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{poetry : completed} "𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐥𝐤𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐞." in a tiny corner of the world, but in the vast corner of my imagination, this is my paracosmic delusion, something that i've created out of indignant, dejected and euphoric emotions. each word in this book constitutes my delusional nightmares, the ones that i know aren't really there, yet i write about them anyway. this is me, my barest and deepest feelings, and my monstrous thoughts. ✦✦✦ {all rights reserved || ©2021, ashe} {published on may 30, 2021} {cover designed by @paracosmic_being} {peace \/}

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