To Stay , or Not To Stay

I walk into the room
She sits in the corner chair
Hair straightened up
Lips in red.
We start talking for a while
She asks me why didn't I text her back
I said I was busy and
didn't want to bother you with my luggage
She smiles a bit and
takes her eyes down from me
I glare at that face , that smile

I start saying " What was so.."
And she just pulls me close to her
And puts her lips on mine
And she pours a long kiss to my sober day.
She tastes like something
I've been always craving for.
I can't tell you how it was
But I felt complete.
When I help her back
And she moved up to me.

She then smiles , again
This time I got nothing to say.
She takes out the box of cigarettes
from her leather jacket.
Lights up one and passes onto me
I said her I don't smoke.
She then took a puff
And kissed me again
It was something like lips with poetry
And only speaking to me
Something that you can't understand.

We then laid down
She slept for a while
I saw her sleeping in my white t-shirt
Hair all tangled up
All I could hear was her breath
and the ticking of the clock.
I glared at her all night.
Moving my finger tips on her bare face
And sometimes on her lips
Sometimes I'd tuck her hair behind her ear.

I couldn't sleep the whole night
But nothing felt like it.
I made her breakfast
while she went for shower.
We were swimming in an ocean
Sitting in my room
Diving a thousand times
Not caring about the breaths that we needed.

And then a thought struck my mind
Is this love ?
She said
There's a love that goes,
And there's a love that stays,
And then there's a love that occupies
every corner of your heart
and still not be with you.
At the moment I never understood
what she said
I felt loved.
That's all that mattered.

It was an afternoon then
She wore her blue jeans
And took that leather jacket back in her hand.
She moved her hand infront of me
I pulled out 2000 bucks
and handed over to her.
And I never had that evening ever again.