'What I've done? Love is really blind me, my heart was a stone cold, I'm lost in between loving or hating him, but my love for him much bigger. He looks as normal as most men, even he looks better than any other men. He showed the affection, caring, all of the things I wish I wanted in relationship, but it wasn't love if it's too perfect. He show me the paradise... dark paradise. Four years, I was so blind to realized that he's not loving me, I wasn't even in his heart and his mind. His heart were somewhere. When we do it, could he think me as her? I am a fool. What he trying to do? I shouldn't trust him from the start, did he doing all of this mess to get what he want? Her as the reward? Or he's actually punished her? Once again, I'm trapped with him, I don't have choice beside getting along and play cool, I'll hold him as long as I can before he get her, until that time, I trapped in his dark paradise. Hope you enjoyed reading my story thanks XX Dina