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How would you feel being left by the two people in the world you loved more than life it's?. Well I can tell you it sucks. And now after 5 long years I'm back in Cathdale having to face them and a whole lot of other problems just to make it through to live another day. Sound fun huh?

Hi I'm Lexi Stevens and I'll be your guide with the ups and downs and twists and turns of my life in Cathdale.  What's Cathdale you ask? Well I'll tell you. Cathdale is the official name of Wonderland and it's not like in the movie with talking cats or white rabbits. It's dark and dangerous but it's also warm and lovely.  And above all else  it's a place I swore I'd never see again.  

" I want you." He says in a low seductive voice, that sends shivers down my spine. 
I try and push him away he's too close but he catches my hands and pins them up over my head. I'm now trapped against his hard chest and the unyielding wall at my back. This was supposed to be a conversation and now it's turning into something dark and hungry.  I look him inki his eyes and for a minute I'm thrown back in time when I would have welcome this and him but now I'm older and know better than to believe this man in front of me. I take a deep breath and say,

" But I don't want you. " 

Before I can continue he laughs low and brings his free hand up to cup my chin. He lowers his head a little so his breath is warming my lips and says,

" Little lair. You want nothing other than us.All Rights Reserved

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Playing His Games by loukeet

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Save Me From Darkness by JRRivera388

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