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If the Mind Could Kill (mxmxfxf)
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Ongoing, First published Sep 01, 2020
Mature
Lore doesn't think very much of her existence. She is content to waste her days drinking, popping pills, and starting fistfights. She's good at suppressing emotions, her favorite pastime, but one emotion in particular always seems to get the better of her. 
Love. And not just love for one person but three. 
Lore finds herself torn between her self destructive nature and her need to be with her three lovers, Akira, Jamie, and Castle, but it's not that simple. None of them are that simple.
Between Akira's anger management, Castle's passiveness, and Jamie's short term memory, the four of them are a royal mess. 
This is the story of four young prodigies who fight between their mental health and their need to be together, as the institute they work for is slowly rethinking their grant money. A time must come for everyone to get it together but with the way things are, it may be impossible. 

(This story is about an established polyamory relationship between two men and two women. It has a lot to do with mental health, love, and trauma, but I'll do my best to keep it light-hearted. It is about affection, friendship, healing, and what it's like to want to be better for the people you love. Steam, as always. Slow updates since this is for fun, go read Mafia Bride and Grooms if you want dummy thick plot lines :)
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